Bra1n-w@shed

Another day, another dime. While everyone else’s dime is just regular dime, mine is made of the thickest blood and has been buried deep under the mother’s soil that it has turn solid rock. When a human finally found it, it shows the shiniest dime from the way time sculptured it with hard lessons and smoldering look the dime itself shown.


Money is what represents the world to us, with such a pretty marketing package, bonus it’s offered, beautiful things you can have and cuddle at night. Something to accompany the lonely heart of yours. Money in different shapes and sizes, even now you don’t have to carry it anywhere, wow. Beautiful, beautiful money. Be cautious.

We are merely a speckle in this big universe in a bond of unseen emotion and the feelings of curiosity of who, what, when and how we are actually here. Some find it as an inner peace and feeling of satisfaction that they already know the answer. But the big question now is present-future, the afterlife. What happen next to our biological form are already answered by science: deceased, dust to dust. But what about the life within us? The logos inside that actually made us human and equally valuable to life itself.

I know what happen to me, safe and sound beside my Creator, the big JC: Jesus Christ. He has bought me back from the dead that I’m supposed to end with. He has paid for all my sins not with money or gold or any cheque in the world, but He paid mine with His blood. He died for me by being crucified to death even though He did nothing wrong, but He did that with nothing in return but for the sake of my life. The sweet Lord assures my name to be listed to sit and lived with Him forever with nothing but joy and happiness after this world ends.

Kinda too much for ya? Well, I’m telling you that even now when I’m still here and being tortured with all the problems in my life, Jesus Christ always there to ease my pain and always, I mean always give me strength to get through it. I’m not feeling afraid when He’s there, like you found your peace and not afraid to face anything. He’s like all the doctors put together when you’re sick, even better! And what makes it awesome is that He never rejects you when you’re down and even when nobody wants you anymore.

Jesus Christ always open His arms big and wide, and smiles that He wants us to know that everything is gonna be alright from now on. All you have to do is simple; just admit ALL your mistakes for real, promise to change to a better individual, surrender to His guidance coz He’s good at it, don’t let yourself to steer your life but let Him be your wheel and follow His lead. Just learn to listen, and you know He actually answered all your prayers. That’s it, simple right. The price to be saved by Christ is nothing, but the value is everything.

Based on true story: mine.

Have
you ever reach that point where your life suddenly changes? I mean by changes,
is big, major, extreme, vast change. Where everything that means the world to
you is suddenly just a small pebble and it so longer mean anything now. Because
you believe that something even better is waiting and coming soon. But it all
start with sacrifices; everybody must do a little sacrifices.

I
must confess that now I’m on the stage of changing. What the preachers are
preaching every Sunday mass is happening to me now. What people say in famous
books I’m reading is touching me now, because I believe. Believe in what? In
nothing. When nothing is matter, that is when I can feel free, that’s the time
that I leave all the burdens and become this new…me.

When
I walk home today the sky was dark, the streets were crowded with cars and
motors and busy people trying to get home too. And I see in my pocket is
nothing but around 5 dollar. Now that’s for.. I dunno, until I got my first pay
check, and that is until I got a job first. I don’t deny I’m stressed out,
[hey, I’m no Superman here] but I’m not depressed. Live is full of color and
this one is just a bit of grayish.

Well,
you can say I’m depressed actually. Why? Because in the past week I felt that
someone’s is following me in the street as I crossing, on the bridge and on the
sidewalk. When I look back there was no one there. I see shadows approaching
and I can feel it touches me on my shoulder but there was no one. Hell, its
kinda freak me out, hahahaha.

My
life is on the verge. Gosh, how ironic I’m using the word “verge” when I only
read it in other’s people story in a magazine in the column of “sit and weep”. I got debts to
clear, bills to pay and I ain’t even got a real job. Just thousands and
thousands of interview. But not a word of giving up coming out of my mouth. This
is time for me to change, to throw the old bad habits [oh yeah, I’ve been a
bad, bad boy]. God touches me and remind me that I’ve been spoiling His
blessing. I always want the honey but never taste a sour medicine.

This
is hurt I’m telling you, but all of this is the way to wake me up. Nothing as
good as we’re still reminded with a little gentle touch from the Sweet Lord. Hey,
this probably the gentlest reminder, who knows there are far more harsh way. I just
smile, use my brain and listen to what He gotta say. To many times I close my
ears and eyes and always do what my ego told me.

We
just have to listen when we still could. And the smartest way to listen is when
we learn to be quiet. In peace we can hear He lead us to a better path. We may
not walking or running, maybe we’re crawling slowly so we don’t miss anything. As
in this changes happen, I must put it in action too. I learn to forgive
everyone and forgive myself. Sometimes even a principle and idealism can be
altered as part of sacrificing for a better and bigger part. Because I believe I
can fulfill my goals and still become a better person [hey, I’m living my name!]

Strength,
courage and wisdom, that’s all I need.

I dedicate this writing to Alexander Riau, a
friend in need is a friend indeed.